Friday, July 19, 2013

We are OK!

We've come such a long way since that terrible day on Dec. 29, 2010 when we lost Lex.    The 3 of us individually persue goals and participate in the world around us.  Most importantly we are not afraid to put ourselves 'out there'.  Together we have become a strong unit.  Our home is our sanctuary, a place where we are emotionally safe.

Rick's progress has been incredible, with a desire to 'give back' through volunteering both as the President of the Men's Club of our synogogue and by raising money for cancer research by setting up  'Team Lex' for  Road Hockey to Conquer Cancer.  Danielle is travelling with a friend this summer and planning for her future.  I am now adding Alexis's beautiful graphic designs to my paintings which allows me to share my artistic journey with her.   I am proud  to be able to use her legacy in such a creative and personal way.

Although we cope with our grief independently we always come together to support and love each other.  In spite of our sadness or  maybe because of it the desire to be seen in a positive way is very important,  but inside, privately we share the tender ache of our loss.  I believe we are OK,  we don't allow this sadness to control us or stop us from living or enjoying our lives.  I'm reminded of an earlier posting where I wrote WWLD 'What would Lex do',  today 2 1/2 years later I've made a small change in this phrase,  it now reads, 'What would Lex WANT us to do?'  She would want us to continue on with our lives and she would want us to be fearless to have Ko'ach (Strength), she is watching us and I know she is proud.