It’s hard to believe that we lost Lex 10 years ago December 29, 2010. It still startles me when I think about her, that she’s really gone. They say loss gets easier with time but, it doesn’t, the memories are still strong and I have moments when thoughts of her death hit me so hard I can’t breathe and I am pulled back to the day she died like it was yesterday. I no longer try to imagine who she would have been or how she would be living her life, it’s pointless to do so and it hurts too much. Now I just think about her essence, her presence and her absence.
This year because of Covid we are unable to hold our annual dinner honouring Alexis where we are surrounded by family and friends and I will miss everyone. This year will be simple and quiet, a day spent, reflecting on, remembering and missing my beautiful daughter.
Beautiful words as always Deb. It hits me too like a ton of bricks when I think about that phone call. Wish we could all be together for dinner like in the good old times. Pls gd next year
ReplyDeleteI remember having to make those phone calls, it was the worst thing I’ve ever had to do, I too hope that next year will be better. Thank you
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